[fear and excitement share a lot of the same signals, and given that Cecelia is so sick of feeling fear, she can't help the wave of unease that comes with being so overtly exposed in the face of exposure. at onset, at least; just like in the length of time it's taken to get to this point, her acceptance is gradual...though, obviously, a lot faster than months now.]
Oh-- [if she had something to say, it's fast forgotten in the switch-flip from alarm to thrill. she still has plenty mind to be embarrassed of herself - like, what is she supposed to do with her hands!!! sit up?? stay put? - so no change there, but reminding herself of all the trust that's been rewarded Darin so far has not let her down even once keeps that switch from flipping back.
it's just embarrassing to think what should i do while oscillating between tensing up and relaxing in the midst of such care.]
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Oh-- [if she had something to say, it's fast forgotten in the switch-flip from alarm to thrill. she still has plenty mind to be embarrassed of herself - like, what is she supposed to do with her hands!!! sit up?? stay put? - so no change there, but reminding herself of all the trust that's been rewarded Darin so far has not let her down even once keeps that switch from flipping back.
it's just embarrassing to think what should i do while oscillating between tensing up and relaxing in the midst of such care.]